i'm still looking

So here is the thing. I am now 32 years old , and I am still not sure what it is that I am the best at. I have done acting, campaigns, Online, Not for profit and (un)fortunately I have not the feeling of knowing what I am the best at.

I guess I should also pint out my side career stops as a poker player, professional gamesman, and stock market guru.

Sometimes I feel it a blessing to be able to go through life and continue to search and strive and grow. But unfortunately sometimes, the strive juice is a little low.

i don't think this is a particularly interesting post by the way...

It is filled with bromides and platitudes. My frustration is the ennui of feeling underutilized. To be sure as cursed existences go, a small one.

What makes this slightly worse is the sense that I have made my own bed here. I seem to have a desire to do things the hard way, coupled with a laziness.

Perchance I need something that requires quick decision making. Showing up and being called upon. I will think on it.

Since no one reads this, I am not sure who I am apologizing to, but sorry for the crazy.